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So here I am.Monday morning. Okay really Monday afternoon but my brain is kind of saying it still feels like the morning. I am walking on the walking workstation at work, of course, and I am starting to feel the burn and really realizing that this little fan might just not be enough to blow away the possible stench that may or may not come from me working and walking at a pace of over 2 miles an hour. This little room has no windows and one baby fan — noted must bring an extra stick of deodorant and possibly some perfume for after my daily walks!
That is right you heard me correctly I have booked our walking station so that I can get in a good walk every day for an hour! I have made so many excuses or push backs this past year that I was like cut the crap Kaylee get it together!! I have to work so why not walk it out and work all at the same time, really what excuse can you give yourself to get out of this, oh wait I can’t so here I am.
Oh girl you caught it the one excuse I thought about — what if you are wearing heels Kaylee …… bingo I thought about it too so lets get into shape Kaylee already found the resolution and once again I couldn’t excuse my way out of it. I bought a pair of sneakers ((cheap from walmart but SOOO comfortable)) that will just stay at work with a pair of socks so that every single day I can get on this treadmill and walk.
I vowed to myself too many years ago that I would drop the pounds, that I would get my life back in order, that I would take charge, that I would keep control but I let it all slip just a bit so I decided that this year has been a roller coaster enough that I have no reason to not take ownership while changing everything else about my life at the same time. You wont see me in the same size pants again, the same locked up thought about my looks, you wont see me out of breathing going up a single flight of stairs, you will see change though. You will see growth, you will see acceptance, you will see love, and you will hear me share in the journey and the growth that is to come.
I know that this is a journey that I can only have with myself and only do for myself but I can share in what I learn, I can share in the struggles that I find myself in, I can give you tips and tricks, I will show you how I am human too and how I struggle or fall down. I have a child, I have a boyfriend, I have my boyfriend’s son, I have a full time job, I have a family, I have friends, I have bills, I have me. What does all of that add up to; it amounts to road blocks, it amounts to struggles, hurdles, obstacles, and chances to succeed even more.
My job — look at how these past years have played it. This isn’t just a come in and punch the clock kind of job. This is a job that I want to excel out, that I want to make huge strides in, a career that I want to flourish in so it is going to continue to need my time and attention and growth as well.
My family; my children; my boyfriend are all going to need a piece of my life pie as well because those are relationships that I need to continue to work on and build upon. I need to be a strong role model, I want to be a shoulder of support, I want to be all that they need me to be.
You have these same kind of things at hand so we all have to find that perfect harmony to accomplish everything that we want to in this life of ours. We push, we try again, we fall 5 more times, but we never stop getting back up.
Take this journey with me. Take it for yourself. Be the voice for someone who lost theirs. Be the shoulder that someone that they didn’t have. Be a leader. Be an example. Be strong because you got this!